Dr. Jordan B. Peterson has been on my mind a lot lately. Primarily from reading his book "12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos". He makes sense of a lot of things and I strongly recommend you either reading the book, watching his stuff on YouTube, or listening to his podcast (multiple venues but I highly recommend his appearances on the Joe Rogan Podcast; numbers 877, 958, 1006 and 1070).
Anyway... we all have little monsters that we are hiding (at least we think we are) under the carpet. It could be our eating habits, our training, our mobility, or a host of other things that you need to attend to. Trying to hide them only gives them power and makes them even more dangerous in the long term. Trust me - it's better to get to them now, whatever they are, then giving them chance to become big, bad monsters!